3 pages or so many words. What novel are you writing this month? How creative can we get? Why are you attacking me? Why are you here? What is your explicit mission? What is it you are running (from?)?
Is typing what I want? Are paragraphs the thing. Poetry or prose. Harmonica or guitar? Keyboard, or what I already have. So many pieces of paper. Minimalistic at the core. Prolific muse. Don’t even know yet…
SPD be throwing people off the edge.
HOW TO HEAL FROM POLICE VIOLENCE:
Tell the whole story to one person.
Be cathartic: Shout, sing, dance about, chant, join marches, dance, paint, create
Get in touch with your body: Meditate, cuddle, get hugs, do somatic therapy or practices, dance, martial arts, stick, staff
Give the middle finger to the police: yell, shout, call them pigs*
Seek therapy: EMDR, Somatic, friends,
Continue to practice good selfcare.
Get into community
Reach out if you feel suicidal. People care about you. Don’t let the system win.
Pictures or written? Handwritten or typed? There is a place for all types? All handwritings in design. Design it how you like. Pick what goes where. Be flexible. Be competitive? Be honest, but not too a fault. Be nice, but don’t put yourself out. Think of overflow… think of letting go… got to stay active… got that covid 15, shit. Still deadly with it… Still just feeling bloated… Need to really make a go of it. All of it. Sober does it. Easier for it. Cot might be best in it… Money, do I really need it? What is it that I need? Tabs, gas, food, water, safe passage through this world.
Safe Passage Through this World
I want to pass safely through this world
so I took a class
or we find a class
martial arts or the ladder
discipline of self or self image
realistic security or false
love in different forms?
love in both?
how much do we sacrifice
what is the righteous thing
grifting the soul
taking from your health
taking from your wealth
taking from the best years
growing up with plenty
never enough
shopping therapy
capitalism profits on trauma
trauma it inflicts
prisoners moving dead bodies...
the last time we saw this was the middle of last century?
united states divided at best
crumbling at worst
grow up america
in an arrogant culture
narcissism and trauma linked
to racism and drama
implicit bias is not gone
Trauma is not healed
(auto capitalization sucks)
This world is never just to the poet
This world is never right for lust
No lust until justice
Dedication on what degree?
What a life I lead…
Or am I the one whom ought to concede
I want to know what is next. Where I am best holistically. What moves the ball forward the most. How dare we take money for viewing spots or money without a clear conscience. I need to know that this world is perfect, but it aint. I don’t even care anymore what is good and bad; I want to speak my mind. I want to stop wasting my time, but be patient enough to do so. Be able to sit in the feeling. I hope this is going okay. It has been such hard raining… such hard speaking… too much grifting. Blowing up shit not for me is disrespectful unless I do it for us. Now I just don’t want to be the persona non grata again. I got trauma, my friends. Where does this world end? Carbon neutral is not even enough anymore. Now we gotta be negative. Carbon negative, life positive.
3 pages typed is a lot… how many words are my 3 pages? How many designs can I get. I need to get rid of all my stuff? I got a shit stack. I got more stupid parts… too much money into this van or not enough. I need a job or not yet. I could supply plenty to the room most days these days. It feels good, but don’t understand, how rude. Is faith rude? I don’t understand. I could kill a man. Kill a man with insensitivity. Kill a women with the same. Fuck the binary.
Are we still marching? Saturday? Me popping in, but consistently. Regeneration or sacrificing mental health. Not good holistically to be in bad mental health in community where your roll is to speak your mind fairly respectfully and amplify voices. This is a time for recogning. This is a time for speaking to elders. This is a time for hope. Genocide is the original sin of this planet. We can’t keep killing ourselves. Resources. Earth. Ocean. The mostly ocean planet called earth line is lifted in my poem of self Orphaning. This world is broken. My trust shattered through family dna.
How many wands do we need? The magic one? The black, the pink, the flesh colored one. Wave them.
Punch a pig. Poke a pig. Make love to their grave. Kill the pig inside of you. Kill the cop in this world. No More Cops shall walk to beat. Cars are no match for people in the street. Manslaughter at least. Killing with immunity. Justifiable homicide. God knows that is not right.
Thou shall not kill, unless it justified was not what the testament was saying in a command. No killing or else. Thou shall not kill.
Thou shall not kill.
Thou shall not kill, yet we will have a life for a life.
A life for a life.
A life for a life is the only thing that is right.
1% of the population is psychopaths
have you killed a psycho today?
can they be reformed
In time, yes, but not for justice now, agreed.
Therapy is not overnight.
dissociation is not love
But what do you do when you do
It is inevitable, no?
This is the question I have for you
They kill us all or maybe some slide by…
Passing as white
But my dna is not what the nazis like
wtf do you like
where is your heart, where is your light
look for angels in the daylight
how disrespectful is a venmo
to John Lewis and the old
no time for life?
no time for numbers?
rather have 100,000
than $100,000
property destruction in the daylight
fire to the revolution of a criminal system
they just rebuild and build their case against
turn people away and marr the peaceful way
mostly peaceful, but they sensationalize the wrong
Crash the movement of 2020
We prepare for January.
*This might cause additional trauma and violence by the police.